Excited and Relieved

It's the end and it happened so fast. I am glad it's over because I had such a hard time with this class, but I got over it and I did better this time than the last time. I may not have made an A, but I passed. I have learned alot this time around and I probably could do it again, I mean write another paper. Hopefully, I won't have to because my nerves can't take that again. Well, it has been a better experience this time around and I have learned more this time around. Good Luck to all!

Nervous

Well, we are almost done with this class, and I think I have actually learned more this time than the last time taking this class. Yes, I failed it the first time, I will admit it, I really suck at writing, but at least I gave it a shot. I am feeling nervous, excited, relieved mostly because this class is almost over. I had my fears about this class and math, my worst subjects, but I got through them and I survived. I am feeling somewhat happy, I think I am going to pass both classes, I may not get an A, but I think I will do ok. We will see and this blogging thing isn't too bad, I should keep doing it because its kind of nice we can write down what we are doing or what we are feeling or anything, that is if I can find the time. I am a little nervous about my next two classes, I am not sure what they are yet. But I am sure I will enjoy them. Well I think I am done writing today, I have to get ready for work and get the kids from school in a bit.

Feeling Great Today!

I had a good weekend, mind you I worked Friday and we were slammed. In case anyone doesn't know, I am a cook in a restaurant, and it's the only family restaurant in town and everyone comes there. But, anyway, I was off Saturday night, which I never get Saturdays off and I went to a wedding. My friend at work, her name is Alta and she is great, her sister got married and my other friend and co-worker, April and her daughter, Sarah, when with me and my daughter, Abigail and we had a blast. I haven't had that much in a long time. I never get to go anywhere but work and Wal-mart and occasionally to Eastgate or the mall. But we danced and ate and just had a lot of fun and I hope to do it again. I really need to get out more and just let loose. Now I am doing homework and I am pretty excited, I am going to get all my work done, I hope and get it turned in on time. I really want to pass this class and my other class. I might have my friend, Alta, helped me some with my paper, she is good at that stuff. Not too much help, just her input. Anyway, I will probably do a little more homework and then off to bed, so I can at least get a little sleep.

Happy Today!

It's Tuesday, and I am working on my homework trying to get it all done. Things are going pretty good so far, work and home are good. I just got over being sick, figures this weather is crazy. The kids will be sick next. I can't believe its almost Thanksgiving and then right around the corner is Christmas, I am not ready for that at all. I haven't even started thinking about what I am getting everyone. I try to start my shopping early, but it never happens. I usually wait until the last minute. Most of the time it is the money situation, I never have any. And it's hard buying for 5 kids. It's not so much what to buy them because they are all easy to buy for, again it's the money situation. I always want to make sure that they all have a good Christmas. Classes will be over soon too. Can't believe how fast it went by, it seems like we just started. Well, I think I am done for today, I have more homework to get done. I have to work tonight, so I won't be able to do any then.

Worried

Here it is Monday night, at 11:59 p.m., and I struggling with this paper. I have so much trouble getting started with this class, I am just scared to death that I am going to fail it again. A writer I am not. My son said when he took English comp in school, he passed and he said all he did was bs alot, I can't even do that. I am so focused on my other class, which is keyboarding, and I am doing better at that because I know about that, I am falling behind in this class. And it doesn't help that Iwait til the last minute, I have tried to make myself do a little bit everyday, but with work and kids and everything in between, it just seems like I don't have enough time to do my work. I don't even go out and have fun. I need some fun in my life right now, maybe that's what I need to do to get myself in a happier mood. Work sure doesn't do it for me and then I have issues with my son and daughter-in-law and they are splitting up and I want to be there for both of them, but I am caught in the middle. It is sad, here I am going on about this insignificant stuff in my life and his life is falling apart right before my eyes and I don't know what to do for him. Hopefully, all this will work out for both of us. I will be able to pass this course and he can get his life back on track. Signing out for today November 2, 2010 at 12:08am.

Getting Behind

Well, I am getting behind on my work again. I try not to, but with work and the kids and staying up till 5 am is kind of getting to me. I didn't get to blog for Unit 4 and that took some points, but I am going to get myself caught up. Having some family issues this week. My son, Aaron, who is just 20, been married for 2 years, decided that he didn't want to be married anymore. If they both would have listened to me in the first place, they would not be in this situation. I feel bad for his wife, because she really does love him, but she has too tight of a leash on him and thats the whole problem. She tries to be his mother and he only has one mother. I want them both to be happy, but if they are not happy together, then they need to be apart. That is why I tell people not to get married. I was married for 12 years and I will never do it again. I live with someone and we are engaged, but I think that is a far as I want to go. I just hope he gets all this straightened out. I feel like a marriage counselor and I am tired of doing it.

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Family

Well, I guess I can start by saying that I have a great family at home. Other than that, I have no other family that I am close to. My mom's sister died last week and I didn't even get to pay my respects. They all live in Pittsburgh and my brothers drove up and didn't even offer to take me or my kids with them. Its not about that, we could have followed them up there, but they didn't even ask. I don't drive in the city, so I could not have done it alone. But most of my family don't care about me and my kids, so I told them straight out, I am done I don't need them. I am the middle child and have always been overlooked and forgotten about, but thats fine, I have my kids and that is all that matters. My dad and stepmother haven't always seen eye to eye, but they weren't welcome to my aunt's funeral and that is sad, because families should stick together, not be torn apart. But that's ok I am fine with it. I have great friends, great kids and the boyfriend isn't too bad. I have school and work so I am good. Something else I would like to add is we bought my son Aaron tickets to a Bengals game and he went yesterday and he a blast. He was on cloud 9 and I am glad he enjoyed himself. He says he is going to go to another game. And I know that my other family don't appreciate me, but I know my kids do and I enjoy doing things for my kids.

My Life

As you all have read my profile, I five children, 4 boys and 1 girl. She just had a birthday in Aug, she is 5 now. The oldest child that is living at home, turns 16 next Friday. How time flies, he will be wanting to drive and all the good stuff. I am not ready for that, I guess I am getting old. This is the second time I have taken this class, I did not do so well the first time, so hopefully I do better this time. I have trouble starting homework, I just keep putting if off til the last minute and I need to stop doing that. I think I am getting better at it. I am not the best writer, either, sometimes its hard for me to put things I want to say into words. My oldest son, Bobby, who is 24, helps me quite a bit with all my homework. He is the smart, creative one in the family. My other son, Aaron, is the athletic one of the bunch, he is taking his GED classes now and doing well, he never was much into school, but since has been out, he does a lot better. He turned 20 in March. Ryan, the almost 16 year old, is into his computer and PS3, he is also a smart one, but he thinks he is dumb. I think he is just lazy. Sammy is the 7 yr. old, and he is going to be the entertainer. He likes to sing and dance and Abigail is the spoiled one, imagine that one. I think she is the rotten one out of the bunch. She gets into everything, but that's ok, she is the baby. I work in a restaurant, I have for 11 yrs. and its time for me to find something better. Well that is my life. Working, going to school and kids, sometimes I do go out and have some fun.

It is almost over, and I am still behind. If I pass this class it will be a miracle. I have a paper due for each class and I havent even started. I had to work all weekend and the kids were out of school Friday and they are out on Monday. I don't even know how I am supposed to get anything done. The weather is beautiful and they will want to go outside and I just don't know what to do. I guess I will figure out something. I just hope to pass. I still won't know much about writing, but at least I can say I tried. Good Luck to everyone. And this blogging isn't as bad as I thought, It is pretty interesting and I might keep doing it.

Here it is getting closer to the end and I haven't even started on my paper. I am such a procrastinator, I have got to start doing things early. I don't know why I do that and then I yell at my kids for that stuff. Hopefully I will pass this course and not have to repeat these classes. I am trying, that is all I can say. I knew this schooling would be hard, but I didn't expect it too be this hard. How are some people able to get it all done and pass and me on the other hand have so much trouble with it. Maybe I am just too dumb and shouldn't even be in college. Maybe I have bitten off more than I can chew. I don't know, we will see. I don't know what else to say.

Catching up

I started this once and I guess i accidentally deleted. I am just tired. I have been working on Unit 6 rough draft for hours and I finally got it done. Don't know how good it is, but we will find out. I think I am finally getting caught up. It is 2:42 in the am and I am wore out. Thank goodness I don't work in the mornings anymore. Well hopefully everything will turn out ok with my classes, I would hate to fail. Thank you Karen for helping me and I hope to talk to you soon. Well, I am done with this for the night. Got to try to get some sleep, I have to work tomorrow night.

Stressed Out

It is 3:13 am on March 22, and I have been on this computer for 2 and 1/2 hours working on Unit 6 homework because I am a procrastinator, not really I just don't know what I am doing in this writing class. I just finished the discussion and I am going to post to 2 peers. Then I will probably try to get some sleep and in a few hours, I have to get the kids ready for school. But I still have one child at home on Monday. Abigail, she is 4 she don't have school on Mondays. Hopefully, I can get my paper written. Then I have to start on my homework for Unit 7. I think I am going insane. Somebody please tell me how to make it better.

It is 2:10 pm I just got out of the shower and I am getting ready to go to my crappy job that I hate. It used to be fun to go to work, now it sucks but what can I do. I am taking online classes and they seem to be getting harder and there is more work involved. I am falling behind, I turn my work in late, there is just not enough time in the week to get it all done. I feel like just giving up, sometimes I think it would be easier. I just don't know if I am cut out for this college stuff. Then I think about my Wonderful Job!!!, a little sarcasm there, and that makes me want to finish this even more, but sometimes I just think I am not getting it. What to do, what to do. I guess I will figure it out soon enough.

It is 2:45 am on Feb 18, 2010 just got home a little while ago from wal-mart. I got off of work about midnight. Kind of a rough night. We are supposed to have some more snow Saturday, and let me tell you I am so sick of snow, I feel like we are living in Alaska with all this snow. Hopefully spring is right around the corner. I have to get some of the schoolwork done, so I don't fall behind again.